Last week, my husband lost his job. Wow. Talk about blindsided. But I have to tell you, that honestly, we always thought that would be the worst thing in the world that could happen, and guess what? It isn't.
I was blessed with the gift of perspective as I attended the viewing of a family friend who had died at his prime...just 32 years old. And I realized, no matter how badly we think we have it, there is always someone who is worse off.
This is probably the hardest post I've ever written, just because today my emotions are everywhere. I am scared and worried about the future. I am concerned about my husband and family. And it may seem ironic, but I am feeling so overwhelmed with love from my Heavenly Father. I know that He is doing a great work here. I am more humbled now than ever, which is actually increasing my desire to live a righteous life. Being unemployed and not knowing where the next meal will come from is an interesting thing because it is reminding me of my own nothingness.
Last night, Tyler and I watched a documentary called "UltraMarathon Man." Maybe you've heard of Dean Karnazes, who set a goal to run 50 marathons in 50 states in 50 days. It was incredible to watch this man's mindset as he set forth to complete the impossible. There was one point in the movie, when he simply didn't think he could take another step and his father told him:
"Run if you can, walk if you have to, crawl if you must. . . just don't ever quit the race."
Well, I think I can at least keep crawling through this trial in our life. I hope to be able to learn the lessons of this moment of eternity, so I can grow and become a better person. I am so grateful that God can see the "end from the beginning." To me, that knowledge has GOT to be enough. I love Him for loving me in a dark hour. I love the gospel and I know that if I can just live righteously, I will be blessed without measure.
". . . Bad days come to an end, faith always triumphs, and heavenly promises are always kept" (Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, "Lessons from Liberty Jail," Ensign, September 2009, 33).
Monday, September 21, 2009
FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT--Blindsided
Posted by K Walton at 7:10 AM
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I love that Ensign Article. I really think it puts everything in perspective. You have such a beautiful testimony! I hope everything falls into place very quickly!
Thanks for your support Becky! You've always been such a good friend to us. You're the best!
(HUGS) to you guys! I had no idea! Let me know if we (me and my family) can do anything for you guys! Hang in there, we're all praying for you and you WILL make it through! Thank you for sharing this with us. Blogging is very therapeutic, is it not? I know you've probably heard this scripture more than once since last week, but I'll reiterate it... in the D&C, Joseph is so frustrated at the suffering all the saints are going through and he's in jail and can't do anything but pray and write letters. The Lord tells him to remain faithful and diligent...to endure to the end and he shall be glorified! You guys are doing just that. Endure it well...even if that means crawling or living minute by minute. Love ya girlie! Keep smiling!
Thanks Sandi. Your friendship means so much to me. LYLAS!
Hey there, Beautiful! I asked you once to take our family pictures. I really would like to schedule a time for that. I'll be calling you this week...perhaps tomorrow. I have this nasty coldsore on my chin that I want to get rid of first (for obvious reasons), but I think maybe next week or the week after. I'll call you and we can talk. :) LYLAS!!!
Sounds good, Nicole! I'll look forward to hearing from you =)
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