Faith Precedes Size 10

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-10-27T11:58:00.000-07:00

ROASTED CHICKPEAS (from http://www.sweetpeaskitchen.com/)

Serves: 8

Points+: 4

2 (15 ounce) cans of chickpeas (garbanzo beans)
1 tablespoon plus 1 teaspoon olive oil
1 teaspoons ground cumin
1/2 teaspoon ground coriander
1/4 teaspoon chile powder
1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/8 teaspoon ground allspice
1/8 teaspoon ground ginger
1/8 teaspoon salt (or to taste)
Dash cayenne pepper

Preheat oven to 400 degrees F. Drain and rinse chickpeas in a colander under running water. Pat dry with a kitchen towel. In a medium bowl, whisk together olive oil and spices. Add chickpeas and toss until coated with spice mixture. Spread chickpeas out on a rimmed baking sheet. Roast, shaking the pan occasionally, until the chickpeas are slightly brown and crunchy, 35-40 minutes. Cool slightly before serving. Adjust seasoning to taste.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-10-27T11:55:00.000-07:00

"Brothers and sisters, the most powerful Being in the universe is the Father of your spirit. He knows you. He loves you with a perfect love.

God sees you not only as a mortal being on a small planet who lives for a brief season—He sees you as His child. He sees you as the being you are capable and designed to become. He wants you to know that you matter to Him." --Dieter F. Uchdorf

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-10-27T11:40:00.000-07:00

Gems from Dieter F. Uchdorf's fabulous talk, "Forget Me Not"

(view this talk in its entirety at http://lds.org/general-conference/2011/10/forget-me-not?lang=eng)

"Sisters, wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love."

"Just think of it: You are known and remembered by the most majestic, powerful, and glorious Being in the universe! You are loved by the King of infinite space and everlasting time! He who created and knows the stars knows you and your name—you are the daughters of His kingdom."

"My dear sisters, you are closer to heaven than you suppose. You are destined for more than you can possibly imagine. "

"Let us not walk the path of discipleship with our eyes on the ground, thinking only of the tasks and obligations before us. Let us not walk unaware of the beauty of the glorious earthly and spiritual landscapes that surround us."

"My dear sisters, the gospel of Jesus Christ is not an obligation; it is a pathway, marked by our loving Father in Heaven, leading to happiness and peace in this life and glory and inexpressible fulfillment in the life to come. The gospel is a light that penetrates mortality and illuminates the way before us."

"The happiest people I know are not those who find their golden ticket; they are those who, while in pursuit of worthy goals, discover and treasure the beauty and sweetness of the everyday moments. They are the ones who, thread by daily thread, weave a tapestry of gratitude and wonder throughout their lives. These are they who are truly happy."

"Never stop striving for the best that is within you. Never stop hoping for all of the righteous desires of your heart. But don’t close your eyes and hearts to the simple and elegant beauties of each day’s ordinary moments that make up a rich, well-lived life."

"Our journey toward perfection is long, but we can find wonder and delight in even the tiniest steps in that journey."

"Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. It’s wonderful that you have strengths. And it is part of your mortal experience that you do have weaknesses."

UPDATE!!!

2011-10-27T11:30:00.001-07:00

Wow! I cannot believe that my last post was in July! I am so sorry to leave you all hanging! It amazes me how much has happened in that short window of time.

I have left Farmers Insurance altogether, since they were not able to pay me what I deserved. I am now working in Roy as the Office Manager of an Allstate office. I dearly love my new job. The agent I work for is very kind and has allowed me to choose my own hours. This office seems a lot more relaxed, so it is much easier for me to not bring work home with me. I am also stilling filling in at Blomquist Hale Consulting from time to time. Tyler is still working at Triumph, though he is now working the graveyard shift, which frees up his days for school and allows me to work as well. He has been accepted into the Math Education program and is still doing very well in all his classes.

On the weight loss front, I am thrilled to announce that I have now lost 50 pounds!!! I am so very grateful for the support of my family and friends, and most of all, to my Heavenly Father and to the Savior. I could never have done this on my own. . . believe me, I've tried! I am so happy to be back at Weight Watchers. It is such a wonderful program and it really does fit my crazy life perfectly. I am so sorry for not posting more, but I am grateful that after more than a year and a half of posting about my aspirations to lose weight and gain health, I am now LIVING it! With all my meal planning, tracking, cooking, exercising, and going to WW meetings, it has become necessary for my to limit the time I spend online. That being said, I will try to post periodically, just to let you know how things are going. Thanks again, readers, for always believing in me! I love you!

2011-07-19T08:32:00.000-07:00

HEALTHIFIED MAC AND CHEESE

(from http://www.eatbetteramerica.com/)

Serves: 6

Points+: 9

2 c. regular or whole wheat pasta, uncooked

2 c. fat free milk

3 T. all-purpose flour

1 tsp. Dijon mustard

1/4 tsp. salt

1/4 tsp. pepper

1/8 tsp. red pepper

2 c. shredded reduced-fat sharp cheddar cheese

Cook and drain pasta. Return to saucepan, cover to keep warm. Meanwhile, heat oven to 350*. Spray 8-inch square glass baking dish with cooking spray. In 2-quart saucepan, stir milk, flour, mustard, salt, black pepper, and red pepper with wire whisk until smooth. cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until mixture boils and thickens. Remove from heat. Stir cheese until melted. Add cheese sauce to cooked macaroni; mix well. Spoon mixture into baking dish. Bake 20-25 minutes or until edges are bubbly.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-07-19T08:18:00.000-07:00

"I feel that the Savior will give that punishment which is the very least that our transgression will justify. I believe that he will bring into his justice all of the infinite love and blessing and mercy and kindness and understanding that he has . . .

And on the other hand, I believe that when it comes to making the rewards for our good conduct, he will give us the maximum that it is possible to give, having in mind the offense which we have committed" (J. Ruben Clark, as quoted by James E. Faust, "The Atonement: Our Greatest Hope," Ensign, Jan. 2002).

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-07-19T07:54:00.001-07:00

My husband and I were talking about the spiritual significance of a hiking experience we had about six years ago in Arches National Park. We were on a weekend getaway and wanted to hike to the Delicate Arch overlook. We had heard that the hike to the overlook was relatively easy, so off we went. We had been advised by others who had been on the hike before, to make sure to look for the stacked cairns along the way. For this hike, in particular, cairns were especially important, since the slickrock trail was so undefined. A few miles into the hike, we stopped seeing the cairns, but didn't worry too much, since we had a good view of the arch itself. We figured we must still be going the right way. As we got within a half mile or so of the arch, we saw a small path on the side of a red wall of stone. We figured that this was our path, so we commenced to follow the wall towards the arch. Somehow we did not notice that the further along the path we walked, the narrower the path became. Several yards in, we noticed that we were walking a pathway not any wider than the shoes we were wearing!

We suddenly felt very foolish and very much in danger. How on earth did we not realize the danger that we had been in? I looked down and saw a steep, slickrock drop of well over 100 feet. Paralyzed with fear at my predicament, I simply couldn't find the courage to move. My brave husband quickly scampered away from the wall, then turned and found me plastered to the wall, holding on with all my might. He came back out onto the narrow path, took my hand, and we gingerly moved back to safety.

To this day, I still get physically ill to think of how close we came to disaster. Once we had reached the wider part of the path, we started searching for the correct route. To our surprise, it was only a few feet away from us, on the other side of the wall which we had been clinging to so desperately. The path there was well guarded with ropes. We quickly made our way to the overlook. When we had seated ourselves, we sat for a long time, in awe of the beautiful view, thankful for the protection we had been given.

The thing about this experience that still befuddles me, is that we never knew what danger we were in, until we were already in such a vulnerable, precarious position. How could we have not known that the path would narrow so? How could we not see, that this dangerous, narrow path could not possibly be safe? We never knew what danger we were placing ourselves in, until it was almost too late! We were never trying to be reckless, but our carelessness just about led to serious injury, or even death.

How often do we "wake up" to the reality of our spiritual situations, also perplexed about how we got ourselves into such situations? I don't think that we always find ourselves knee-deep in sin, because we were being reckless, but like our hike, if we don't constantly look for the cairns of gospel truth and guidance, it can be easy to lose our ways.

Anyway, I am grateful for the "cairns" in my life: the holy scriptures, a living prophet, good church leaders, and the gift of personal revelation through the Holy Ghost. I hope that whenever I do find myself in trouble, I can be kept from danger, through the Atonement, and take the Savior's hand as He offers to lead me back to safety. I hope I can follow Him, for I know that He is the only way to get to my ultimate destination: eternal life.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-06-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was wonderfully weird. I had the opportunity to visit a ward in my stake for their ward conference. Since I had no children with me, I was able to focus deeply on the messages taught in class and in sacrament meeting. The spirit was strong, even overwhelming. I was holding back tears the entire block. These tears, not atypical for me at all, were hard to understand. They weren't necessarily tears of gratitude OR tears of despair. I'm not sure why I was so moved. Was I exhausted? Was I feeling hopeful? Was I confused? Anyway, sometimes it is good to feel touched, even if I can't explain the emotion behind it. Sometimes it is good to not be able to express myself in words; then, I find myself in the position to listen.

I came home from church with a headache. My family was still at church so the house was quiet. It was the perfect opportunity for me to take a nap. Instead, I laid in bed, my thoughts racing. I said an inward prayer that the Lord would halt my thoughts and allow me to simply "be still and know that He is God." I didn't sleep, but rested physically and emotionally for some time.

After I got up, I felt renewed, rejuvenated, and ready to face another day. I was blessed with clarity and a new resolve to choose faith. I was thinking that that is one of the wonderful things about faith and hope; they are regenerative in nature. You can be just about spent ... at your wit's end one day, then wake up full of faith and hope the next. I am thankful that my faith is a renewable resource!

Today I was reading about hope in an address by Russell M. Nelson . Here are some of the fabulous one-liners from the article:

"Passing tests of obedience requires faith and hope---constantly."

"A correlation exists between hope and gratitude."

"Counting blessings is better than recounting problems."

"Hope emanates from the Lord, and it transcends the bounds of this mortal sphere."

"A more excellent hope is mightier than a wistful wish."

"Hope, fortified by faith and charity, forges a force stronger than steel. Hope becomes an anchor to the soul. To this anchor, the faithful can cling, securely tethered to the Lord. Satan, on the other hand, would have us cast away that anchor and drift with the ebb tide of despair. If we cling to the anchor of hope, it will be our safeguard forever."

"Insufficient hope often means insufficient repentance."

"Happiness comes when scriptures are used in shaping our lives."

"If our hopes were narrowly confined only to moments in mortality, we should surely be disappointed. Our ultimate hope must be anchored to the Atonement of the Lord Jesus Christ."

"God sent us here to be happy and successful. Meanwhile, he also needs us."

I hope that I can, as President Howard W. Hunter exhorts, "hope a little more and despair a little less." And until I become 100% happy and 100% successful, I hope I can be available to serve the Lord. I hope I can posses faith, hope, and charity CONSTANTLY and choose faith over fear at all times.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-06-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

"Not surprisingly, faith, hope, and charity have their opposing forces. . . the antithesis of faith is doubt; the opposite of hope is despair. And the opposite of charity is disregard or even disdain for the Savior and His commandments. Therefore, in our quest for faith, hope, and charity, we must beware of doubt, despair, or disdain for the divine." --Russell M. Nelson

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-06-24T09:37:00.001-07:00

PULLED PORK (adapted from http://www.foodnetwork.com/)

Serves: 6

Points+: 8 (without bun)

3 tsp. vegetable oil, divided

1 small onion, chopped

2 cloves garlic, minced

kosher salt and black pepper

2 tsp. chili powder

1 tsp. ground cumin

1/2 tsp. ground cinnamon

1/4 tsp. cayenne pepper

1 1/2 c. low-sodium chicken broth

1/3 c. ketchup

1/3 c. plus apple cider vinegar

2 T. molasses

1 pork tenderloin, about 1 lb., cut into 4 pieces

In a large Dutch oven, heat 2 tsp. of oil over medium heat. Add the onion and garlic and season with salt and pepper. Cook until softened and lightly browned (5 minutes). Add the chili powder, cumin, cinnamon, and cayenne and cook until toasted (one minute more). Stir in the broth, ketchup, 1/3 c. vinegar, and molasses. Bring to a simmer and add the pork. Simmer, covered until the pork is just cooked and tender, about 20 minutes. Remove the pork to a cutting board and let rest for 5 minutes. Increase the heat on the remaining sauce in the pot to medium-high heat and cook until thickened, about 5 minutes. Remove from the heat. Shred the pork with two forks into large chunks. Toss back into pan and combine with remaining sauce to absorb juices. Let stand 10 minutes, then serve on whole wheat sandwich buns with yummy coleslaw and corn on the cob! (Additional points)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-06-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

"Testimony is to know and feel. Conversion is to do and become." --Elder Dallin H. Oaks

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-06-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

Well, life is still crazy, but it feels mostly crazy good, not crazy bad. Tyler is back in school with two new semesters under his belt. I am so proud of him. He is getting wonderful grades and works full time too. What a wonderful husband and father he is! Unfortunately, his paraprofessional teaching position at Dale Young Community High School has now been eliminated due to budget cuts. Which means, by necessity, I have gone back to work again. I am doing some telemarketing for the same insurance agent I used to work for, which is a little frustrating, since the pay is so little, considering that I am a licensed insurance producer. I am also working for Blomquist Hale Consulting, a counseling office here in Brigham. I am the fill-in receptionist, so I only work a few days each month, but the hourly wage here is great, the job is very easy, and I LOVE the nature of the work. I feel very blessed to be where I am.

The frustrating thing is, I STILL do not know where we will ever find stability in our careers. It seems like every time we find a resting place: jobs that pay the bills, schedules that work for our family, etc., then is the time when we are again pushed into the dark. The other day, another Farmers agent from Roy called me out of the blue and talked to me about filling in for his receptionist while she is out on maternity leave and also doing some telemarketing for them. At his office, I would make MUCH more money. The only problem is that it is quite a commute for a mommy who is not even sure she's supposed to be working at all. And I'm scared. I have a part of me that is so timid, so very frightened of discomfort. I'm a homebody by nature and all this putting myself out there professionally becomes exhausting. I am tired. But, it's nice to have options and to know that we have a future when so many are not employed at all during these hard times. I'm sorry if this post is disjointed and unorganized. If so, it would accurately represent the jumble of thoughts and feelings in my mind and heart.

Thank goodness for the Spirit. I love knowing that I can have moments of peace and clarity whenever I choose to slow down and take the time to pray, read my scriptures, and meditate. I have been combining my scripture study and my workout sessions on the elliptical machine. I now look forward to these times. After a long, stressful day, it is so nice to go downstairs and jump on my elliptical and read the words of the prophets. It has been so good for me.

This is sure to be a lengthy post, since I haven't even gotten to my main point yet. Even with all the uncertainty swirling around my family, I feel peaceful most of the time. I know that I will be led in the dark if I live righteously, which I am desperately trying to do. I know that the Lord is mindful of our situation and that He knows why we are facing these trials, and what our faith can help us accomplish eventually. I am able to look back on the tremendous growth we have both experienced in the last twenty one months since Ty lost his job. We have learned to have more faith, to trust in our loving Heavenly Father and each other. Our family is close. Our blessings are appreciated, and rarely taken for granted. Our perspective is better. Our spiritual capacities have expanded. Our testimony of tithing is absolutely undeniable. I feel honored to have been "blessed" with this trial.

Anyway, I was going to share a great little story with you from Elder Allen F. Packer. He was playing in an important football game when he was on his high school team. He had prepared well for the game, showing up each day for practice, running his drills, working out his body to develop strength, and listening diligently to the counsel of his wise coach who dedicated himself to teaching his team the basics of football. He kept practicing until his skills became natural and automatic. In the most critical, chaotic moment of the game, amid the deafening noise, he was able to hear his coach's voice above the crowd, "Packer! Tackle him!"

He went on: "I have wondered how I heard the voice above all the other noise. I had become acquainted with the voice of the coach during the practices, and I had learned to trust it. I knew that what he taught worked. We need to be acquanited with the promptings of the Holy Ghost, and we need to practice and apply gospel teachings until they become natural and automatic. These promptings become the foundation of our testimonies." (Elder Allen F. Packer, "Finding Strength in Challenging Times," General Conference, April 2009)

I am so grateful to have the ability to hear the Spirit's promptings over the roar and chaos of the word and all its cares. I am so very blessed to have this direction. Each time I choose to obey, each time I chose faith over fear, I become more practiced in living the gospel and living righteously becomes a little easier, more natural and automatic. I have felt my testimony grow through my obedience. I hope that I can continue in faith and trust. I pray that I will always be able to hear the voice of the Lord in the midst of challenges and chaos.

FAMILY PICTURES!!!

2011-06-16T08:18:00.000-07:00

Almost 35 pounds lost! I am so happy to finally have enough confidence for FAMILY PICTURES!!!

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-06-04T15:58:00.000-07:00

LOW CALORIE CHOCOLATE RASPBERRY ICE CREAM PIE (from www.laaloosh.com)

Serves: 8
Points +: 4

6.5 oz of chocolate wafer cookies
3 tbsp reduced fat butter ( I used Brummel and Brown Spread)
1/4 cup confectioners' sugar
2 tbsp skim milk
3 cups raspberries, fresh or frozen (thawed)
1/2 cup granulated sugar
2 large egg whites, at room temperature
1/2 teaspoon cream of tartar
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp vanilla extract
2 tbsp lemon juice

Preheat oven to 350°F. Coat a 9-inch pie pan with cooking spray. To prepare crust: Process cookies, confectioners' sugar, milk and butter in a food processor until finely ground. Press the mixture into the bottom and up the sides of the prepared pan, creating an even, dense crust. Bake for 12 minutes. Cool on a wire rack to room temperature, about 1 hour, pressing any puffed parts of the crust back into the pan.

To prepare filling: Meanwhile, puree raspberries, vanilla extract, lemon juice and salt in a blender or food processor until smooth. Strain through a fine-mesh sieve into a medium bowl, pressing with a rubber spatula to extract the juice; discard seeds. Bring 1 inch of water to a slow simmer in a large saucepan. Combine egg whites, granulated sugar and cream of tartar in a 3-quart stainless-steel bowl. Beat with an electric mixer on medium speed until foamy.

Set the bowl over the simmering water and continue to beat on medium speed, moving the mixer around, until the mixture is glossy and thick, about 3 1/2 minutes. Increase the speed to high, and continue beating over the simmering water until very stiff and glossy, about 3 1/2 minutes more (the eggs will be at a safe temperature, 160°F, at this point).

Remove from the heat and continue beating on medium speed until room temperature, 3 to 5 minutes. Fold the raspberry puree into the meringue until combined. Pour the raspberry filling into the pie crust. Place the pie on a level surface in your freezer and freeze until solid, at least 6 hours.

To serve, let the pie stand at room temperature until softened slightly, about 10 minutes, before slicing. Slice into 8 equally sized pieces.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-06-04T15:54:00.000-07:00

"Let failure be your teacher, not your undertaker." --Zig Ziglar

"Today I could desire with all my heart. . . . that all. . . . would thank God for one more day! For what? For the opportunity to take care of some unfinished business. To repent; to right some wrongs; to influence for good. . . . ; to reach out to someone who cries for help--in short, to thanks God for one more day to prepare to meet God." --Harold B. Lee

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-06-04T15:33:00.000-07:00

As I mentioned a few days ago, I've been reviewing some of my old Sunday School manuals. I love to read the inspired words of the prophets and see how well they carry over as times and seasons change. I am currently reading from the Harold B. Lee manual. It has been great to learn "at his feet", since he is one of the prophets I know the least about. One thing: he is a fabulous speaker! In Chapter One, he tells a parable using the story of the near tragedy of Apollo 13:

"Some months ago, millions of watchers and listeners over the world waited breathlessly and anxiously the precarious flight of Apollo 13. The whole world, it seemed, prayed for one significant result: the safe return to earth of the three brave men.

When one of them with restrained anxiety announced the startling information, 'We have had an explosion!' the mission control in Houston immediately mobilized all the technically trained scientists who had, over the years, planned every conceivable detailed pertaining to the flight.

The safety of those three now depended on two vital qualifications: on the reliability of the skills and the knowledge of the technicians in the mission control center at Houston, and upon the implicit obedience of the men in the Aquarius to every instruction from the technicians, tho, because of their understanding of the problems of the astronauts, were better qualified to find the essential solutions. The decisions of the technicians had to be perfect or the Aquarius could have missed the earth by thousands of miles.

This dramatic event is somewhat analogous to these [troubled] times in which we live. . . . Many are frightened when they see and hear of unbelievable happenings the world over--political intrigues, wars and contention everywhere, frustrations of parents endeavoring to cope with social problems that threaten to break down the sanctity of the home, the frustrations of children and youth as they face challenges to their faith and their morals.

Only if you are willing to listen to and obey, as did the astronauts on the Aquarius, can you and all your household be guided to ultimate safety in the Lord's own way" (Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Harold B. Lee, p. 1-2).

I love this analogy. We must trust our Heavenly Father and our Savior (the technicians), knowing that they see the whole picture, and know how to bring us back to safety. And we must do, with exactness and precise and prompt obedience, what they ask us. They are the experts and without their help, guidance, and wisdom, we will not make it back. And as much of a tragedy the loss of the men of Apollo 13 would have been, the loss of souls due to apathy, disobedience, or half-hearted obedience, would prove even more devastating. Another interesting parallel is that the astronauts, before receiving help, needed to make the distress call: "Houston, we have a problem. . . " Otherwise, mission control would never have known that they were in danger. Help for us, in our time of need, is just a prayer away. "Dear Father, I have a problem!" Exactness. Promptness. Trust. Faith. Obedience. Good stuff!

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-05-21T17:03:00.000-07:00

I got goosebumps when I read this FABULOUS quote by Harold B. Lee. This is powerful, powerful stuff:

"By faith in God ... you can become attuned to the infinite and by power and wisdom obtained from Heavenly Father harness the powers of the universe and have them serve you in your hour of need in the solution of problems too great for your human strength or intelligence."

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-05-21T16:52:00.000-07:00

SALMON BURGER (from http://www.realsimple.com/)

Serves: 4

Points+: 9 per burger

1 (14.75 oz.) can salmon, drained

1/4 c. sliced green onion

1/4 c. diced pimentos, drained (optional)

1/2 tsp. lime zest

2 T. fresh lime juice

2 tsp. Dijon mustard

1/2 c. plain Greek-style yogurt

1/2 panko (Japanese bread crumbs)

1/4 tsp. salt

1/4 tsp. freshly ground black pepper

1 large egg, lightly beaten

1 T. canola or vegetable oil

4 whole wheat or poppy seed buns

Garnishes: lettuce, tomato slices, onion slices, cucumber slices

Combine first 11 ingredients in a bowl, and form mixture into 4 larger patties about 1/2" thick. (Patties will be soft.) Heat oil in a nonstick skillet over medium heat. Add patties, and cook 5 minutes on each side. Serve on buns; garnish.

I'M BA-ACKKKK!

2011-05-19T16:55:00.000-07:00

Hello, my long lost friends! Actually, I'm the one who's been MIA, so I've got some serious 'splaining to do. As most of you know, I have been going to Weight Watchers again. I started going again at the end of January. I don't know what it is, but this time, it's like a FIRE has been ignited somewhere within me and I have such a DESIRE to do well! I've been working out six days a week, eating healthier, tracking every bite in my journal, and praying. A lot.

I feel so loved. I feel as if my Father in Heaven and I are developing a better, closer relationship. And I also feel that He is giving me gifts: patience, desire, ability, understanding, self-compassion, energy, and most of all, He is blessing me with His sweet, sweet fatherly love. I am now seeing the pounds coming off more quickly, and after all that I can do, I find that He has joined me in my righteous cause. He magnifies my efforts, and maximizes my results. I have been more successful this time, and I would count that as a direct result of time spent daily with Him in prayer and scriptures study.

To date, I have lost forty pounds. I lost ten on my own, before heading back to Weight Watchers, and another thirty since joining again. My weekly average is almost two pounds a week. Since I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), weight loss at this rate is SUCH a miracle. I will always count it as such, for I have come to know through years of battling my weight, that I simply CANNOT do this on my own.

So I want to publicly thank my Father in Heaven. I love Him and I recognize that He blesses me daily in a million ways. And when I think of all the future blessings He offers me, I am humbled and filled with a brightness of hope. For the first time in nearly a decade, I feel as if I have control over my body. I'm in the driver's seat, and my Savior is riding shotgun. And guess who's filling the back of this vehicle? Angels. Many, many angels are guiding me as I walk this path to reclaiming my physical health, strength, and vigor. I am thankful for these sweet angels, both heavenly and earthly.

I count my blog readers among these angels. Thank you for never giving up on me, for believing in me and my abilities. I love you all. I have so much to tell you about what has been transpiring in my life. I pledge that I will start writing more often, so I can share all. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-04-09T10:37:00.000-07:00

ITALIAN WHITE BEAN DIP (adapted from http://www.weightwatchers.com/)

Serves: 8

Points+: 2

19 oz. canned cannelini beans, drained and rinsed

1 T. lemon juice, or to taste

1 tsp. lemon zest, or to taste

1 T. water

1/8 tsp. salt, or to taste

1/4 c. store bought or homemade pesto sauce

1 medium plum tomato, diced, divided

Place first five ingredients in a blender and process until smooth. Put mixture into mixing bowl and fold in pesto and all but 2T. of the tomatoes. Refrigerate for 30 minutes. Top with remaining tomatoes and serve with veggies, crackers, or pita chips. (Additional points)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-04-03T11:25:00.001-07:00

Yes, I was very excited to hear the folowing quotes in conference today: "Use your hands to blog and text message the gospel to the world ... " (Dieter F. Uchdorf) AND also one of my favorite quotes: "Preach the gospel at all times, and if necessary, use words." (St. Francis Assisi) AND: "The only way to see the views is to make the climb." (Paul V. Johnson) AND "Kindness is the essence of greatness." (M. Russell Ballard quoting Joseph B. Wirthlin) AND "What we INSISTENTLY desire is what we will become." (Dallin H. Oaks) AND "A testimony is like a living organism." (Cecil Samuelson) AND "They [your children] may not remember exactly what you said or did, but they will remember that you said or did it." (Richard J. Maynes) AND "Fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith." (President Monson) AND "A person cannot give a crust without receiving back a loaf from the Lord." (Henry B. Eyring) AND "His tender mercies can make us mighty in any circumstance." (Walter Gonzalez)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-30T21:23:00.000-07:00

Day 12: What is your favorite story in the scriptures? Oh boy. This is a really hard one. I have so many favorites and they change frequently as my life marches on. I love that about the scriptures ... I always seem to find just what I need to hear exactly when I need to hear it. Earlier today I was thinking about the story of the widow's mite: And there came a certain poor widow, and she threw in two mites, which make a farthing... And He called unto Him his disciples and saith unto them, Verily I saith unto you, That this poor widow hath cast more in than all they which hath cast into the treasury. For all they did cast in of their abundance; but she, of her want, did cast in all that she had, even all her living. This story hits many nerves with me. First of all, I admire this sweet widow and I can relate to her financial struggles. We have struggled since Ty lost his job and it has been a test of our faith to continue paying tithing faithfully, not knowing how our basic needs would be met. I admire this widow for her quiet, unwavering faith. Her example blesses me hundreds and hundreds of years later. It gives me peace, knowing that when I give all that I have, I please the Lord and honor my Father in Heaven. Secondly, I think of the things that I tend to hold onto when I comes to forsaking the world and following the Savior. Perhaps a good juicy bit of gossip, or my favorite television show, which I know to be less than appropriate. Perhaps it's the stubborn satisfaction of remaining offended at seemingly unkind actions of long ago. What is it that I still need to bring to the treasury? What is that sacrifice that I have been holding back? What more do I need to bring to the Lord and hand over to him? What grudge am I still holding on to? What do I still need to resolve in order to grow a closer relationship with my Savior? What of my pride? How can I offer more to Him? How can I truly commit to Him? What is that last farthing I've been hiding, tucked away in a dark corner? I have a great love for the gospel and these verses remind me that as I show willingness to sacrafice all that I have, all that I am, and all that I hope to be, only then will I lay claim to all the blessings which the Lord has in store for the faithful.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-24T19:56:00.000-07:00

Day 11: What is your favorite food?

Oh heavens. I love food. Thanks goodness Weight Watchers is teaching me that that is ok. It's so nice to know that I can eat what I want as long as I set boundaries for myself.

I love sweets. Lately, it's been dark chocolate and mint stuff like mint chocolate chip ice cream or York Peppermint Patties. Yum..... I also ADORE cheesecake.

I'm also a veggie lover. I LOVE nothing better than going out to my garden and eating a green pepper while it's still warm from the sun or a plate of roasted or steamed asparagus. I also LOVE cauliflower, broccoli and steamed, buttered cabbage. The only vegetable I don't really care for ... artichokes. Blech!

I don't like milk. I have tried to convince myself to like it so many times, but I just can't get past the taste/texture. Luckily, I like all other dairy. And I don't like meat too much. Red meat, especially steak, is just not something I love. Chicken, fish, pork and ham, me likey.

What about you?

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-23T21:52:00.001-07:00

"Make failure your teacher, not your undertaker." --Zig Ziglar

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-23T20:14:00.000-07:00

Day 10: What is the hardest lesson you've ever learned?

I don't have many regrets in life. Even the hard times have taught me valuable lessons that I couldn't have learned in any other ways.

I would say the hardest lesson I've learned is that if you choose not to do something today, you'll probably regret it. And chances are, you'll just have to do it later in life, possibly at a much more difficult stage of life.

Yes, I am referring to weight loss here. I sometimes wish that I would've had the courage, know-how, faith, etc. to tackle my obesity BEFORE it became obesity. But at the same time, I have learned along the way and I have a hope that I will be able to be a voice and a light to those with similar struggles. Without being there, I would never have learned compassion for my sweet friends who also long for health and longevity.

Overall, life is better than good. As I work at losing weight, I am constantly amazed at the tender mercies that touch my progress. I am amazed at how strong I am becoming, spiritually, physically and emotionally. My battle against obesity is fast becoming a vehicle for increased faith, testimony, self-esteem, and hope. Where regret once lived, hope and joy now reside.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-22T07:38:00.000-07:00

"When we choose to obey the commandments cheerfully as our first priority, neither murmuring about nor measuring the things He commands, we become the handmaids of the Lord and fishers of men, and cast our nets on the right side of our own ships. We simply go and do the things the Lord commanded, even when we are weary, trusting that He will help us to do exactly as He asks. As we do so, the Lord helps our unbelief, and our faith becomes powerful, vibrant, and unshakeable." (L. Whitney Clayton, "Help Thou My Unbelief," Liahona, January 2002, 31-33)

"Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance [or faith], to see the salvation of God, and for His arm to be revealed." (D&C 123:17)

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-22T07:30:00.000-07:00

SEASONED PORK TENDERLOIN (from http://www.fatsecret.com/)

Serves: 8

Points+: 4

1/2 tsp. ground cinnamon

1 tsp. ground cloves

1 tsp. ground ginger

2 1/2 lbs. pork tenderloin

1/2 c. light pancake syrup

In a large zip-close plastic bag, combine syrup and spices. Add tenderloin to plastic bag, squeeze out air, and seal bag. Marinate in refrigerator for at least two hours, prefereably overnight, turning bag occasionally.

Preheat broiler. Place tenderloins on broiler pan (spray with cooking spray) and cover with marinade. Broil until pork reaches an internal temperature of 160* (about 7 minutes each side).

Serve with brown rice and squash or asparagus.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGIN CHALLENGE)

2011-03-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

Day 9: Describe your dream home

Ok. I should probably say something noble like "I just love the home I'm in now. I could be satisfied to live here forever and ever. I am so very blessed." While I do like my home, and do feel very blessed to have it, I have a secret yearning to move into a fabulous craftsman bungalow or an amazing Victorian charmer. I LOVE the character of an older home. (Since we're just dreaming here, we'll assume that this dream older home would have no electrical or plumbing issues...)

I love all the millwork you see in old homes, as well as architectural details like stained glass windows, built in bookcases and window seats, tin ceilings, laundry chutes, archways, crown moulding, etc. etc. etc. Ahhh. A girl can dream, right?

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-20T21:37:00.000-07:00

NO BAKE CHEESECAKE

(from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 8

Points+: 6

8 oz. Cool Whip Free

8 oz. 1/3 less fat cream cheese (softened)

9-in. reduced fat graham cracker crust

1/4 c. sugar

1 tsp. lemon juice

In a large bowl, whip cream cheese, lemon juice, and sugar for a few minutes until fluffy. Add Cool Whip and whip until smooth. Spoon mixture into pie crust and chill for a few hours until firm. For just 3 points+, spoon mixture into bowls and elimintate the crust. Top with a handful of raspberries for no additional points. Yum!

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-20T21:36:00.000-07:00

"Do your duty; do your best. Leave unto the Lord the rest."
--David O. McKay

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

Day 8: If you could do anything or go anywhere for one whole day with your family, where/what would you do?

It may sound boring to some, but I honestly would just want to be home with my family. I'd clean the house while the kids colored and played with Playdough at the kitchen table, then we'd make banana bread, play a board game, do haircuts and paint fingernails, and end with a movie and popcorn. My life is what I want it to be. It may not be perfect, but it's perfect for me.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-19T14:47:00.000-07:00

My new favorite snack! And I get the WHOLE box all to myself for 3 Points+!!! I mean, come on! it has CHEESE SAUCE!!!! The Broccoli and Cheese Sauce and Corn Niblets with Butter are also DELECTABLE!!!

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-19T14:25:00.000-07:00

Day 8: If you could meet someone famous (dead or alive) who would it be?

Mother Teresa. I love this woman. She was such an incredible example of selfless, fearless service. I love her quotes too. They help me realign and refocus myself whenever I start thinking perhaps the world should rotate around me. Here's a sampling:

"If you judge a person, you have no time to love them."

"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway. If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway. For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It never was between you and them anyway."

"Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love."

"Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin."

"Never travel faster than your guardian angel can fly."

"What can you do to promote world peace? Go home and love your family."

"Spread the love of God throughout your life, but only use words if necessary."

"I do not pray for success. I ask for faithfulness."

"It is a kingly act to assist the fallen."

I cannot wait to meet this sweet, gracious, woman someday. Her quiet dignity truly inspires.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-18T20:00:00.000-07:00

Day 7: Where would I go on vacation if I could go anywhere in the world?

It is so hard to choose just one. I've always wanted to go to Austria and do a classical music tour. Or back to my dad's stomping grounds on the lovely Oregon Coast. Or back to Bucharct Gardens in Vancouver, British Columbia. I've never been to Nauvoo either. Or Disneyland. For the sake of the kids, I'd better stick with that ... Disneyland, my final answer!!! (Preferably at Christmastime)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

DAY 7: What is something you never leave the house without?

Mascara! I discovered mascara my junior year in high school and it literally changed my life! I count count on one hand how many people have seen me without it since then. Yes, I wear it to Girls' Camp. Yes, I wear waterproof mascara in the pool. Yes, I wear it in my sleep. I am so crazy about my obession with mascara, that one year I wrote an ode to mascara for a writing competition. It won second place ... the female judge must have understood:

Ode to Mascara

Oh, Mascara! How do I love thee?
Let me attempt to explain:
You fluff and pump the volume
Of something rather plain.

Your little brush, your sticky goo,
You're a gift from up above,
You boost and lift and lengthen
And feel my heart with love.

I love it when you wateproof
When the movie makes me cry
I even love to scrub and scrub
At night when we say "goodbye."

So sweet Mascara, please stay with me
And never leave my side.
Please say that you'll be there for me
When I look a little fried.

I'll see you in the morning
I'll dream of you 'til then
I hope no one will see me
Until we meet again.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-10T07:28:00.000-08:00

HEALTHY FRUIT RAINBOW

(adapted from http://www.sistersstuff.blogspot.com/)

*** All the fruit is 0 points+

*** "March" mellows are 3 points+ per 1/2 c.

This would go great as dessert with yesterday's SHAMROCK MINI PIZZAS, don't you think?

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

Day Six: What is your favorite holiday?

I absolutely ADORE Halloween! I love to dress up and dress my sweet little kiddos up. I love the smell of the crisp autumn air and the crunch of leaves under my feet. I love traipsing aound the neighborhood with my children in tow, in the pursuit of yummy treats. I love homemade donuts and apple cider. I love going to my family's annual grown-ups only costume party. I love visiting my children's elementary school to watch the kindergartner's costume parade. I love everything, simply everything about Halloween!

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-09T21:00:00.000-08:00

SHAMROCK MINI PIZZAS

(adapted from and photo courtesy of http://www.familyfun.com/)

Serves: 8

Points+: 4 per mini pizza

Jarred pizza sauce

4 English muffins

Sliced 2% milk cheddar cheese

Green bell peppers

Half each English muffin. Slice green peppers horizontally to get "shamrocks". Top each muffin half with pizza sauce, then cheese, then green peppers. Cut stem-shaped pieces from unused portion of peppers and add these to the pizzas. Broil until cheese is melted and green pepper is slightly tender. Enjoy with a big leafy green salad and steamed yellow carrots (these look just like golden coins!)

I will post dessert tomorrow!

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-09T20:57:00.000-08:00

"The greatest work we will ever do will be within the walls of our home." --David O. McKay

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-09T20:38:00.000-08:00

Day 5: Something you hope to do in life ...

As I mentioned a few days back, I tend to dream big. I have so many dreams, but ultimately my main objective in life is to be a good mommy and wifey. I love my family so much. I also want to be an author and a chef and a photographer and a medical-something-or-other and an artist and an interior designer and a singer and a healthy, beautiful gal. But, even as I dream of all these possibilities, I constantly come back to a little quote that is evermore floating around in my head: "No success can compensate for failure in the home." (President David O. McKay) I have had requests for more pictures of my darling family, so I will plug in a few for you.

What do you want in life?

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-08T15:02:00.001-08:00

Hope

by Emily Dickinson

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune--without the words,
And never stops at all.

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm,
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-03-08T14:51:00.001-08:00

I have been thinking about hope lately. Before I got serious about losing weight back in January, I thought about my obesity every day ... in a bad way. I obsessed over my body, feeling ugly, unmotivated, tired, depressed, overwhelmed, etc. You get the picture. Now, even though I've lost 30 POUNDS (!), I am still quite overweight. I still wear the same size. Not many people have noticed yet that I've even lost any weight at all. So what is the difference between now and before? Now that I'm on the right track with my goals, I have HOPE. I feel an inner drive that propels me forward. I think about my body still, but now, in a good way. I appreciate my increase in energy. I like the way my pants snap easily. I love being able to go up and down the stairs with ease instead of huffing and puffing. Everything about my life is better, fresher, and more joyous. The difference stemmed from my ability to do SOMETHING about it. And that simple decision is blessing my life. Gone are the feelings of self-doubt and frustration. In their place, are feelings of optimism and brightness. Hope and fear cannot coexist. I would therefore put forth the theory that hope comes as the fruits of hard work and spiritual direction.

I thank the Lord for granting me the desire to work hard at losing weight, for giving me this body, and for guiding me as I strive to make better use of it and treat it with more kindness. I truly have hope that things will continue to get better healthwise and otherwise as I put in the hours: planning meals, working out, learning to deal with stress and cope in a healthy way. Thank you all for offering words of hope to me. I love each of you!

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-08T14:27:00.000-08:00

Day 4: A picture of something that makes me smile ...

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

DAY 3: What is your favorite indulgence?

I have always loved food, but my love for it got me into a lot of trouble. Now, I am learning to control myself, allowing for occasional indulgence, but not allowing food to control me. One thing that I still love though, is watching Food Network, which is totally calorie free. You would think that watching these programs would cause me to crave food, but it's actually very theraputic to enjoy the sights of gourmet food and the vision of the chefs who prepare them with love. So I indulge away, In the process, I've become a better cook and can look at food with thoughtfulness and objectivity. My husband also loves to cook and we often dream of opening our own restaraunt.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-05T13:45:00.000-08:00

BAKED POTATO SOUP (from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 5
PointsPlus: 5

2 russet potatoes, washed and dried
1 small head of cauliflower, (florets only)
1 1/2 c. fat-free chicken broth
1 1/2 c. 1% milk
salt and freshly cracked black pepper
1/2 c. light sour cream
10 T. reduced fat shredded sharp cheddar cheese
6 T. chopped chives, divided
3 slices bacon, cooked and crumbled

Pierce potatoes with a fork; microwave on high for five minutes, turn over and microwave another 3-5 minutes, until tender. Cool. Peel potatoes.

Meanwhile, steam cauliflower until very tender. Drain and return to pot. On medium heat, add chicken broth, milk, and potatoes and bring to a boil. Use an immersion blender to puree until smooth. Add sour cream, half the chives, salt and pepper, and cook on low another 5-10 minutes, stirring occasionally.

Remove from heat. Ladle soup into each bowl. Top each serving with 2 T. cheese, remaining chives, and bacon.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-05T13:41:00.000-08:00

"Only as high as I reach, can I grow. Only as far as I seek, can I go. Only as deep as I look, can I see. Only as much as I dream, can I be." --Karen Ravn

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-05T13:38:00.001-08:00

Day Two: Something you love about yourself

One thing I love about myself is that I dream big. I'm always planning for the day I will get my first book published, try out for the Mormon Tabernacle Choir, wear a size 10, or go to India to work in a mobile medical unit. I love to think big. I feel that this particular strength of mine helps me to be a more optimistic person because I always have hope for a better, bigger tomorrow. Besides, I know that all things are possible for the one who loves God!

What do you love about yourself? What are some of your big dreams?

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-03-04T19:35:00.000-08:00

HERBED PARMESAN CRISPS (from http://www.weightwatchers.com/)

Use on your next soup or salad-YUMMY!

Serves: 12 (2 per serving)

PointsPlus: 1

4 oz. Parmesan cheese, finely shredded (about 1 1/2 c.)

2 T. fresh chives, minced

2 T. fresh parsley, minced

1/2 tsp. black pepper

Preheat oven to 425*. Line two cookie sheets with parchment paper or coat with cooking spray. Place scant tablespoons of cheese on prepared pans, about 1 1/2 to 2 inches apart. Flatten out each pile of cheee into an oval shape; sprinkle with herbs and pepper. Bake until cheese crisps turn golden and rssemble lace cookies, about 5 to 6 minutes. Cool on pan until set and then move to wire rack to cool completely.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-03-04T19:31:00.000-08:00

"Never let a spiritual prompting slip through your grasp. I challenge you to either act on each prompting or write it down for later action within TEN SECONDS of receiving it." --My Stake President, Ron Frandsen

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT (NEW BLOGGING CHALLENGE)

2011-03-04T19:24:00.001-08:00

Day One: Something You Hate About Yourself

After years and years of hating so many things about myself, I respectfully refuse to answer this question. Instead, I will address a few things that I consider to be weaknesses ... or better yet, we'll call them FUTURE STRENGTHS!

1) I am a very disorganized person. It seems to be my lot in life that the harder I try to get a handle on my housekeeping, laundry, paperwork, etc., the more they seem to take over! I keep working at it though, and I try to be gentle with myself, because I realize that it can be very difficult to organize with four young children. In the meantime, I practice the art of selective neglect, always trying to make time to keep at least one area neat and tidy at any given time.

2) I am ALWAYS tired. My energy level, even now that I eat healthily and exercise often is always low. I think I'm going to go talk to a doc about this again.

3) Chocolate. Come on, I'm only human after all. Thank you, Weight Watchers, for teaching me that I can have my cake and eat it too ... occasionally. :)

What are your "future strengths"?

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-02-28T07:53:00.000-08:00

Whew! Yesterday (Sunday) was a whirlwind, but such a wonderful, uplifting day. First, I was the visiting speaker to another ward in my stake. The other speaker was a high council member and he spoke about the power of prayer and how to recognize answers as we receive them. He made a good point when he noted that many of us pray like we're putting coins into a vending machine. We wait for the answer to instantaneously fall into the tray, like it's a candy bar or something. But usually, prayers come after much study, reflection, and time has passed by. It was an excellent visual and a helpful reminder to me.

Then, I had the opportunity to "visit" my own ward for our ward conference. It was such a spiritual day!

One of our dear ward family members fell into a diabetic coma several months ago and was lifeflighted to Ogden Regional Hospital. There, her family members were told that she likely would not be able to pull through. Still, a week later, she was taken off her ventilator because she was able to breathe on her own. She continued to improve, but was still not expected to live long. After several weeks, she was moved to a nursing home, still in critical, but stable condition. The nurses there all reaffirmed to her family members that it was only a matter of days or weeks until she would be gone. About this time, she received a priesthood blessing from our stake president. He didn't feel prommpted one way or the other about whether or not she would be healed, but after the blessing he looked at her, saw how sick she appeared, and called the relief society president of our ward and told her to expect a funeral in the next few weeks. Miraculously, the next day she woke up. Not only that, but she began talking coherently to the nurses, asking for family members, recognizing visitors. By the end of the day, she was asking for food and able to walk to the bathroom herself. That was about two weeks ago. Yesterday, she walked into sacrament meeting with her husband, who has been inactive for years. As ward members saw her, they could not deny that a true miracle had taken place.

During sacrament meeting, our stake president (who is a member of our ward), told us of yet another miracle that happened during the week. His daughter and son-in-law and their five sweet children have been living with him for about a year because the son-in-law was battling stage four sarcoma. The cancer had already metasticized, and he too, had been dealt a death sentence. Countless doctors had told him that with all the tumors that riddled his insides, there was absolutely no way he would pull through. Still, to buy him as much time with his beautiful family, they commenced with chemotherapy, surgeries, and radiation. At each appointment, with each specialist, he was told the same thing: "Get things in order. Spend as much time with your family as you are able. You will not live long."

At one point, a radiologist looking at his x-rays, said that it looked like there was a "hail storm of tumors" inside his body. There were tens of thousands of them.

Two weeks ago, in one last-ditch attempt to remove some of the largest tumors, he had another major surgery. A day or two later, he and his wife met with their doctor to go over the results of the surgery. The doctor was visibly moved as he tried to explain the unexplainable: according to new tests and scans, the cancer cells were dying. This was medically impossible, but it was still happening. The doctor began crying as he told the couple that a miracle had happened. There was no other word.

So yesterday our stake president announced with tears in his eyes, that his son-in-law is cancer free.

I wish each of you could know this family. They are so sweet and special. They are remarkably strong in the gospel. I've never met a family quite like them. I can't think of anyone more deserving. There was not a dry eye in the congregation.

So my testimony to you is this: miracles still happen. All. The. Time ...

WEIGH-IN RESULTS

2011-02-16T21:50:00.000-08:00

It's now been a month since I went back to Weight Watchers and I'm pleased to announce that I hit my 15 pounds mark tonight at my weigh in. I also got my 5% award. I'm so pleased. I haven't had much time to post lately, but I wanted to make sure I thanked my blog readers for your love and support. As always, I also must thank my loving Heavenly Father. With Him, I know nothing is impossible. :)

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-02-04T12:59:00.000-08:00

BLUEBERRY OAT MUFFINS
(from my own recipe box)

(Sorry, no pictures this time!)

Serves: 12
PointsPlus: 4 (per muffin)

1 1/4 c. all-purpose flour
1 c. oats
1/2 c. sugar
1 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp. salt
2 egg whites
1/2 c. water
1/3 c. oil (I use canola)
1 c. fresh or frozen, unthawed blueberries or mixed berries

In a bowl, combine firt six ingedients. In another bowl, beat together egg whites, water and oil. Stir into dry ingredients until moistened. Fold in bleberries. Fill paper-lined muffin cups. Bake at 400* for 18-22 minutes or until a toothpick comes out clean. ***These freeze well.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-02-04T12:56:00.000-08:00

"It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness." --Eleanor Roosevelt

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-02-04T12:37:00.000-08:00

My life lately has been AWESOME! I feel renewed, motivated, and InSPiReD like I haven't in months. On the weight loss front, I have been working SO hard ... still doing the elliptical machine six days a week, Zumba twice a week, and sticking to plan with WeightWatchers new PointsPlus system (which is amazing!) I lost ten pounds on my own before heading to WW's and since joining three weeks ago, I've lost another 11.5. Yay! I feel amazing, strong, vibrant, confident, beautiful, and hopeful. I've decided to make the 16 Principles from Alma 57-58 that I mentioned in my last FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT post, my guidelines for this battle against weight. I know I just called it a battle, but truly, I am finding a lot of joy. Who knew I could Zumba for an hour straight or do two miles of elliptical machine training? Who knew I could lose 22 pounds in six weeks? Who knew? I know now that nothing is impossible with God. And I feel him with me. I also can feel angels "round about" me as I work. I pray that God will continue to magnify my efforts and maximize my results.

I am also LOVING being an at-home mommy again. It has been an adjustment though. I think I'd forgotten how much work it is. But such blessed work. I want to share something with you that helps me remember what is means to be a mommy ... my favorite blog. I hope you'll go visit this amazing woman's website and read all about her family and about her life. She has quite the story to tell. Her perspective on motherhood reminds me of its sweetness and meaning. Here is a little quote from one of her posts. I have this passage printed and up on my refrigerator ... just to remind me to have fun with my mommyhood:

"I made dinner. It was calming. I fed my children, fulled their tummies, bathed them, combed hair, rubbed lotion on sweet fingers and cheeks. And we happily cleaned up the kitchen and then I put them in their cozy little beds. I kissed freshly brushed mouths, played their lullabies, and quietly shut the door."

Idyllic? Maybe, but believe me ... there is nothing idyllic about the adversity that Stephanie Nielson has faced in order to gain this perspective. You can visit her blog at http://www.nieniedialogues.com/ Also be sure to check out the video the LDS church made about her experience. It's called "My New Life." You can find it in the side bar on her website or search for it on YouTube. Once you meet this amazing woman, you'll fall in love with her and her family. I know she'll change your life too.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-01-26T21:42:00.000-08:00

"Even when, from a purely human perspective, perfection can appear an impossible challenge to achieve, I testify that our Father and our Savior have made known to us that it is possible to achieve the impossible. Yes, it is possible to achieve eternal life. Yes, it is possible to be happy now and forever." (Jorge F. Zaballos, "Attempting the Impossible," Ensign, November 2009, 34)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-01-26T21:20:00.000-08:00

SO, I joined Weight Watchers again. Nope, I can't really afford it, but I figure at this point, it's an investment. I CANNOT afford diabetes, heart disease, etc. either. I started last week and tonight was my first weigh-in. I have stuck with my plan diligently, even measuring portions to make sure I'm getting them right. I have also continued doing around a mile/mile and a half each night on the elliptical, six nights a week, followed by a relaxing cool down and stretch. I've also found a wonderful website that is helping me stay motivated. It's www.dailymile.com. I love that under my profile picture it has the caption, "An Athlete." I love that! Me...an athlete. And at my first weigh-in tonight, I lost seven pounds!!! I lost somuch, that I have already had my daily points target adjusted. I'm thrilled to be back!

This morning, I was tempted to read a magazine while I ate breakfast, but the spirit reminded me of my commitment to start each morning off with meaningful scripture study and prayer, so I noshed on some yummy oatmeal while reading in Alma 57 and 58. I read about the stripling warriors. I love these guys. What courage, determination, and faith they had! As I was reading, I started really seeing a modern-day connection to dealing with adversity-to fixing things that need to be fixed and overcoming great obstacles. Here is a list of lessons from these two chapters. I highly suggest you grab your scriptures and read along with me. It's pretty powerful stuff. Yup, you heard me. Stop reading this and go get them. I'll wait ...

Are you back? OK. Here's my list:

16 Key Principles for Overcoming Obstacles
(Courtesy of the 2,000 Stripling Warriors)

1. Recognize your desire. (Alma 57:7)
2. Beware of the enemy. (Alma 57:9)
3. Be persistent. (Alma 57:11-12)
4. Unite with others. (Alma 57:13)
5. Fight with all your strength. (Alma 57:19)
6. Live righteously. (Alma 57:21)
7. Thank God for successes. (Alma 57:26)
8. Trust God to show the way and open doors. (Alma 57:27)
9. Be patient. (Alma 58:7)
10. Pray! (Alma 58:10)
11. Take courage. (Alma 58:12)
12. Go forth with all your might. (Alma 8:13)
13. Keep on moving. (Alma 58:26)
14. Be prepared. (Alma 58:29)
15. Recognize God's help. (Alma 58:39)
16. Always remember what God has done. (Alma 58:40)

I hope that I can take these steps and APPLY, APPLY, APPLY! I am so thankful for these valiant guys! Like the stripling warriors, if faithful, we may be injured in our many battles in life, but with God on our side, we will not suffer spiritual death. We will win.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-01-19T08:06:00.000-08:00

"No matter the size of the issue, how we respond can reset the course of our life." (Elder Donald L. Hallstrom, "Turn to the Lord," Ensign, May 2010, 78-80)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-01-18T21:08:00.000-08:00

"Just do it." --Ezra Taft Benson

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-01-18T20:40:00.000-08:00

Tonight I did two things: 1. I visited a ward New Beginnings night (I am in the Stake YW Presidency) and 2. I watched The Biggest Loser.

At the New Beginnings meeting (which was lovely), I noticed three things that upset me. First, my tailbone hurt immensely, second, my posterior end no longer fits comfortably in the standard Relief Society room chairs, and third, because of the pain of my tailbone and the pain of the metal bars of the chair, I had a very hard time paying attention to the meeting. (Mom, please forgive me for the personal and self-degrading nature of this post).

As I watched The Biggest Loser, I noticed a few things as well. I noticed that I cannot sit on the couch comfortably because my tummy feels squished. I cannot sit on the floor comfortably either because I have to lean to one side or the other to avoid putting pressure on my sore tailbone. As I lean to the side, my hips start aching after several minutes. While, watching the show, however, I did NOT have a hard time paying attention. I paid attention to the way the contestants stood and walked and sat. They, too, seemed uncomfortable. They were in physical pain as well. Though most of them outweigh me, I found myself in the same boat. And like them, I want to bail ship!

I love Biggest Loser, not necessarily for the diet and exercise programs exhibited, but for the chance I get to see someone's journey. I love watching the small breakthrough moments, the individual stories and the AHA! moments of each contestant. Today, my not being able to concentrate in the New Beginnings meeting was an AHA! moment. How on earth, can I dedicate myself to serving the Lord in this, and other callings, including motherhood, if I can't even concentrate? How can I give life my best effort if I am uncomfortable and not feeling well? I need to lose this weight. That's all there is to it. I need to start now. I need to be deliberate and to set forth with all the determination I possess. And I need the Lord to help me and guide me allong the way. As Sheri Dew said: "He knows the way because He is the way."

So (now here's the part I'm proud of), following the episode, I calmly went into my room, got my running shoes on, and went downstairs and immediately got to work. I did the elliptical machine for a mile and did some cool down walking. I felt much stronger than I expected I would, and felt that I could have even gone further but I do have a bad cough right now and didn't want to be up all night, so I quit.

Here's the plan: I'm going to keep doing this each night, excluding Sundays. It'll be a little experiment: Can I stick with it? Can I get better at it? Can I see results from it? In addition to exercising, I'm going to return to a specific prompting I received a few weeks ago, to stop eating after 8:30 pm each night. (This is the time I feel most tempted to binge). I'll probably set additional goals down the line, but for now, I'm going to focus on these small steps. In essence, I'll be experimenting, just like Alma taught us to do. I'm having thoughts that these are good things I can do to lose weight, and I'm planting those thoughts, turning them into actions. We'll see if they grow from seeds of thought into plants of results.

I'll keep you posted!

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-01-13T09:11:00.000-08:00

CHOCOLATE RICOTTA MOUSSE

(from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 6

Points: 4

Points+: 5

2 c. part skim ricotta cheese

3 T. unsweetened cocoa

2 large egg whites, room temperature

1/2 c. sugar

pinch of salt

In food processor or blender, combine ricotta and cocoa powder until completely smooth. Transfer to a large bowl. Place egg whites, sugar and salt in medium heatproof mxing bowl and place bowl on top of a pot of simmering water. Cook and whisk constantly until the sugar dissolves and the mixture is warm, about three minutes.

Remove bowl from heat and beat with an electric mixer on high until stiff peaks form (about 5 minutes).

Using a rubber spatula, gently fold egg whites into cocoa mixture until well-combined. Divide into 6 (6 oz.) ramekins and refrigerate at least 3 hrs.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-01-13T09:08:00.000-08:00

"When obedience becomes our goal, it is no longer an irritation; instead of a stumbling block, it becomes a building block ... Obedience leads to true freedom. The more we obey revealed truth, the more we become liberated." (James E. Faust, "Obedience: The Path to Freedom," Liahona, May 1999, 45, 47)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-01-13T08:38:00.000-08:00

The scriptures admonish us to become like little children. I have been thinking about that this morning. I think of my own children. They are so full of love for others. They are forgiving. They live life with exuberance and zest. They love to learn. They help each other. They are submissive and (for the most part) obedient. They love to sit with me and hear my voice as I read to them. They love to spend time with each other and with Tyler and I. They love to create things with their own hands. They have so much energy. They live life with passion. They don't think of what they can't achieve, but wonder what they can do.

Am I like a little child? Do I love others as fully as my children do, or do I only see their differences and pick and choose who I will love? Do I readily and humbly forgive those who have offended me? Am I living my life with passion and excitement? My own children can hardly fall asleep at night because they just don't want to miss a single second of life. In the morning, they bounce out of bed, thrilled to face another day of adventure.

One thing about my children is that they love to learn. But they usually like to use a hands-on approach to learning. I think that's the preference for most children. Am I using a hands-on approach to learning gospel principles, helping others, serving my neighbors, and creating beauty all around me, in the same way my children experiment in and out of the classroom?

Kelsey fell down on the playground yesterday and had the wind knocked out of her. She told me about her friend, Ashley, who was there to pick her up and make sure she was ok. She was so grateful that her friend had been there to help her and comfort her. Am I there to help those around me when they fall? Do I offer them my own hand, and comfort them until they can get back on their feet?

Do I truly believe that I have a Father in Heaven and do I obey Him as a child would obey her own father? Do I spend time with Him each day? Do I have a relationship with Him as my children have a relationship with their parents. Do I love to spend time with my own brothers and sisters?

I hope I can learn more from my children. I realize that they can teach me so much about life. I am so grateful for them and for their sweetness and the examples they are to me.

DEAR CRACKLIN' OAT BRAN,

2011-01-12T08:59:00.000-08:00

I just want to thank you for giving me something to get out of bed for each morning. I love your cinnamony-coconutty goodness. I love that you stay crunchy in my milk, something which many of your peers struggle with. I love you. I'll see you tomorrow!

Love,
Me

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2011-01-12T08:29:00.000-08:00

EASY EASY MARINATED FLANK STEAK

(adapted from http://www.kitchenparade.com/)

Serves: 4
Points: 3

1 lb. flank steak
Japanese soy sauce to cover

Combine steak and soy sauce in a large zip lock bag and refrigerate for 1-4 hours, turning periodically. Heat the grill. Cook on one side for about 10 minutes and the other for about 5 minutes, depending on desired doneness. Cover with foil and let rest for five minutes. Slice on the diagnol and serve with steamed vegetables and a small baked potato. (Adds points)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2011-01-12T08:20:00.000-08:00

"Joseph's question focused not just on what he needed to know, but also on what needed to be done! His prayer was not simply, "What church is right?" His question was, "Which church should I join?" Joseph went to the grove to ask in faith, and he was determined to act." (Elder David A. Bednar, "Ask in Faith," Liahona, May 2008, 94-97)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2011-01-12T07:55:00.000-08:00

What a whirlwind my life has been these last few weeks! First, the holidays, which were wonderful, simple and full of joy and love. Then, on New Year's Day, I slipped on the ice on my front porch and re-broke my tailbone. OUCH!

On the next Monday, my boss called me and our office manager into his office and let us know his business is failing. He told us that he would probably go under in the next few months and let us know that if we wanted to try and ride it out with him, we could, but he wasn't sure if he'd have enough money to pay us next month. I went home that night and tried to sleep on it, but I couldn't sleep at all. So, I got up and knelt in the living room for quite a while, searching for direction. I felt as if I should go ahead and quit.

I have mixed feelings about my decision. I am a little nervous about our family making it financially without me working. But, I do feel strangely at peace about the decision. I will be able to stay at home with my kiddos for a while, which I have missed SO much. Each moment home has been a blessing, and though I miss my job and my customers, I am so much happier now. I've been cleaning and helping with homework and decorating and cooking and trying very hard to never take any of these opportunities for granted. I am so blessed to be at this point in life, where I really, truly feel the importance and blessing of each aspect of motherhood. If nothing else, being a working mama teaches you to treasure every moment you're given with your family.

I am also so grateful that I will be more available to help Tyler as he heads back to school this semester. I may have mentioned earlier that he struggles with school as one with dyslexia. I am so excited that we will be more able to study together and that he will not have to worry about taking care of the children while I'm gone, in addition to all his other responsibilities.

So, pretty much the only con, is the whole financial aspect. Tyler called his old boss from several years ago and asked if there is potential to come back to work there, even part-time. He made pretty good money there, so if he could get back, it would be a tremendous relief for our family. He was told that they are short-handed, but not quite ready to hire, but to call back every month or so and check back. They are thinking that possibly they could bring him back on in the Spring.

So as you can see, our life is pretty much nuts. But honestly, we'll take it. It's not cancer. It's not divorce. It's not a loss of faith. It's just financial trials. That, we can deal with. That, we can conquer. Together.

At times like these, I'm so comforted to know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who understands and honors the desires of my heart. As I live righteously and with full purpose, I believe that I can achieve joy.

I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before on my blog, but I desperately want to have at least one more baby. Right after Macey was born, while the nurse was in the room washing her up, I had a strong prompting that there was another baby in heaven for me. It was very, very strong. I am so grateful for that prompting, given the financial and physical trials I've had since then, because it's given me something to work towards.

I have three things that are stopping us from trying for another baby now:

1. We have no insurance. (We do now, so this is taken care of)
2. We do not make enough money.
3. I weigh too much to have a healthy pregnancy.

Though I really want to get pregnant NOW, I know that I would be unwise to do so without first overcoming these obstacles. Bloggers, can you please offer a prayer for me? I can't wait too long, because I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), which makes it harder to conceive and carry a baby the longer I wait. I've already had four miscarraiges and my risk for more increases with each pound I put on and each year of my life. I need the desire to do something more about my weight. And we need to make more money. I feel a little funny asking for your help, but I do have a testimony of the power of prayer.

Anyway, that's the latest installment in the Walton Family Saga. I love the gospel. I would be lost without its warmth and meaning. I love you all as well. God bless you each in your own endeavors. I'd love to "prayer swap." Please tell me what prayers you are in need of for your own lives. What are you struggling with? What is the desire of your heart?

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-12-17T23:38:00.000-08:00

"Christ does not need admirers. He needs followers." --M. Russell Ballard

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-12-07T22:12:00.000-08:00

CINNAMON APPLE SPICED OATMEAL

(adapted from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 1

Points: 5

One bowl prepared oatmeal (not from packets)

1 T. apple butter, swirled in or spread over top

ground cinnamon, to taste

1/4 c. low fat granola

1/4 c. finely diced apple, if desired

YUM!

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-12-07T22:08:00.000-08:00

"The holy scriptures are like letters from home, telling us how we can draw nearer to our Heavenly Father." --Ardeth Kapp

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-12-07T21:54:00.001-08:00

I have a testimony of the truthfulness of the Book of Mormon. I just had to start with that. I can't tell you how much I have learned from reading its sacred pages. I truly have a testimony of the fact that these words were intended not only for our day, but for ME. I am so grateful for the depth of each story, each character, and each passage. I love to turn each page, striving to find personal applications to my own life with the gift of personal revelation.

Last week, I had a HORRIBLE day at work. I'm talking, really, really bad and discouraging. That night as I sat on the floor next to my bed with this precious volume in hand, I prayed for a verse or two that would keep me going. And I turned "randomly" to Alma 38. The words therein were like water seeping into a dry, cracked desert dust.

Then this morning, I was thinking again about HOW on earth to receive direction during this time of great uncertainty and copious choices for our family. I felt prompted to read Alma 37, where I was taught the importance of prayer and scripture study. Verse 37 is a perennial favorite of mine:

"Counsel with the Lord in ALL thy doings, and when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that He may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day."

I also love the discussion of faith and righteousness as well as study of the Lord's words serving as a personal, modern-day "Liahona" to each of us. I know from personal experience that without His daily guidance, I DO "tarry in the wilderness, or do not travel a direct course. I am afflicted with hunger and thirst" when I do not choose o study and live His words.

How grateful I am for the scriptures. What would I do without them? What scripture helped you today?

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-12-02T15:07:00.001-08:00

Wow! You know, life is really CRAZY sometimes! This month has been chaotic to say the least. Tyler started a new second job this week that we are super excited about. He will be teaching computer aided drafting at the local community high school for about 10 hours each week. It's not much, but the pay is much better than we anticipated, so we are so grateful. Plus, teaching CAD has been his dream job since he was in high school, so this is very fulfilling for him. In addition to that, he received a small raise this week from his full-time job. It's not as big as we would've liked, but most raises have been frozen for quite some time and we're not sure anyone else is even getting raises right now, so we'll take it! And to add the the hectic pace we are living, Tyler is now officially registered for Spring Semester at our local university. Whew! I'm not sure that we're both up to the challenges ahead of us, but we are feeling cautiously optimistic that our situation may be starting an upward trend. (I have another secret, but I won't be able to tell you about that for a long, long time. The excitement is killing me! And no, I'm not expecting.)

Anyway, Tyler and I have discussed these exciting changes this week and we've decided that it is really, really neat how the Lord knows our innermost desires, sometimes even better than we do. He knew that Tyler would love this new position and planted the idea in his mind. Tyler went in to talk to the school's principal, with no inkling that there would even be an interest in his propsed program. There was no help-wanted ad. Tyler simply had an idea (fruits of the spirit) which he acted on. A week and a half later, he is working as a teacher, something he dearly loves.

I take great comfort in the fact that the Lord knows each of us this intimately. Sometimes we feel alone and forgotten, but often in those very hours when we cannot even think of taking another step into the dark, a light shines forth, showing the way.

We were reading scriptures with the kids the other day and my eight-year-old daughter made a profound observation. We were reading about Nephi's family when they were sailing toward the promised land. She mentioned that it was the wind that carried them closer to the shores of peace and safety. In her own words: "Mommy, they never would've gotten there without the wind. It's like when we have hard times. Sometimes they can make us better people."

I'm grateful for the "tough love" of my Heavenly Father. So many times during my trials, I would've loved to have been snatched from my trials and set down in a more comfortable spot. But, as I look back at the past, I see that in the most difficult times, my testimony has grown, I have learned new skills, I have become more compassionate, my humility has increased and I have been made more ready to trust in the Lord. I would never trade these lessons for a comfortable, warm "house on the hill." I know the Lord knows my thoughts and desires. He loves me and will always guide me to the lessons I need most. With that in mind, I need never fear. Only believe.

DEAR FOOD NETWORK,

2010-12-01T13:55:00.000-08:00

I want to thank you for hours and hours of inspiration and entertainment. I love to sit before you, on my comfy couch, with pen and notebook in hand, gaining culinary know-how. I love the feeling I get when I make one of your recipes and it turns out wonderfully delicious. Oh, how I love to take all the credit for these morsels. Please forgive me for never sharing my secret. . . you. Thank you for teaching me about panko and double-boilers, fondant and taragon, reductions and most of all, myself. You have brought to my attention a new passion and have taught me to dream big. Thanks to you, all roads lead to my DELICIOUS future!

Love,
Kristen

P.S. My family thanks you as well.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-11-13T21:19:00.000-08:00

"Sisters, we love you. We pray for you. Be strong and of good courage. You are truly royal spirit daughters of Almighty God. You are princesses, destined to become queens. Your own wondrous story has already begun. Your 'once upon a time' is now." (President Dieter F. Uchdorf, "Your Happily Ever After," Ensign, May 2010)

DEAR KITCHEN CHAIRS,

2010-11-13T21:16:00.000-08:00

Thank you kindly for being there for me whenever I need to get something done without the children underfoot. It is so nice of you to line up in the living room and allow the kids to play "train" while I wash the dishes in peace. Oh, how they love to toot and wave out your imaginary windows, whilst I scrub away. You all are truly some of the best friends a mother could have.

Sincerely,

Kristen

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-11-13T20:56:00.000-08:00

Wow. Have I ever told you that I think the gospel is awesome. And I mean awesome in the more reverent sense of the word. Tonight I headed off to the Worldwide Training Meeting, sort of expecting a somewhat boring presentation of the new church-wide handbooks. But instead, I received a spiritual feast. I bathed in personal revelation from the opening hymn. And the personal revelation applied not just to my Young Women calling, but also to little struggles at home. The restored gospel of Christ is remarkable not only for its depth and scope, but also for its simplicity.

I felt like a bad mom today. For some reason, my kiddos were uber-hyperactive today. And grouchy. And fighting with each other. Non-stop. I had a headache. I was beyond grumpy. As I left the chilies at my wonderful, amazing, soon-to-be-twinkled mom's house to be babysat, I said a prayer that my heart would be prepared for the spirit and that I would have the chance to apologize for my inappropriate anger to the kids later.

During the meeting, which was mainly about how church councils can function effectively and benefit from each member's personal thoughts and revelation, it occurred to me. . . this message translates! My family is a council! My kids are member of the council and I need to include them in the discussions. When we are facing problems, I need to ask them to suggest solutions, offer their input. I also was taught that in order for our family to move forward, improving and growing each day, the spirit will have to be present in these council meetings. Once that happens, we will have more unity as a family.

It was such a breakthrough in thinking for me. In fact, I remember thinking that I felt like I was hooked up to a spiritual computer or something, receiving a spiritual download. And the message, though a shift in past methods, was simple in nature.

And I felt so loved. Heavenly Father heard my prayer and answered me in an understandable, timely, specific way. And that is awesome.

DEAR BLOGGERS,

2010-11-13T13:06:00.000-08:00

I recently heard of a fun way to show gratitude. I am going to add a little "thank you" note to my blog from time to time, addressed to the person or thing I'm thankful for. I think this will be a fun exercise and I hope you will feel free to share with me what makes you feel grateful as well. Here's my first thank you note:

Dear Bloggers,

Thank you for reading my words without judging me for my weaknesses. Thank you for your tender, encouraging comments and your prayers. Thank you for your own faith. Knowing women like you makes me feel like part of a sisterhood. I feel stronger each day because of this blog and you have motivated me to pick myself up, dust off and continue in hope. I love you all!

Sincerely,
Kristen

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-11-12T21:28:00.000-08:00

Well, we went to Vegas. It was a much-needed break from reality for both of us, but it is SOOOO good to be home. Though exciting and different, downtown Las Vegas was stinky, loud, and a little depressing. Walking around the strip was a fun adventure, but after a few days, the glitz and glam wore off and we were ready to come back to good ole' Utah with its trees and fresh mountain air. But despite "Sin City's" filthiness, we came back with a few lessons about life (and a lot of souvenirs!)

Las Vegas itself is a little like the war between good and evil. The brochures all were so enticing, each promising excitement and entertainment, a respite from reality and a city that never sleeps. The lights and fancy casinos were beautiful and impressive at first. And nothing beats the food. We ate like kings! But after a day or two, we began seeing truth all around us. The brochures said nothing about the smell of cigarettes and alcohol that somehow slipped under the door of our "no-smoking: hotel room. Nor did they mention that about every 10 minutes we could expect to hear the siren of a racing ambulance or police car. We weren't told that the casinos that we would walk through were to be filled with lost, hollow souls numbly staring at flashing screens, which promised false hope of riches. It was fun to see Paris and the Bellagio, the Luxor, the MGM Grand, Excalibur, New York New York, and the Mandalay. The most unsettling experience for both of us was the walking salespeople. Each casino had highly persuasive men walking around looking for sweet, unsuspecting tourists like us. They promised us free tickets to be used at a "show" of our choice and vouchers for free meals. Though we said we were not interested, they persisted, promising us that we would have a good time. And they were everywhere! The funniest part was when we told one man that we were going to the dollar theater in town, so we didn't need tickets. He asked us what show we were going to see. You should have seen the look on his face as my awesome hubby responded, "Nanny McPhee Returns." He pretty much gave up on us at that point, probably guessing that we were Mormons.

Pedestrians in Las Vegas who walked even just a block away from the strip saw an entirely different downtown. There, they saw the sadness of drunken men, out of work and looking desperately for their next fix or drink. And I won't even start about the free pornographic pamphlets everywhere!

Anyway, the point is that Satan enlists the senses to help entice us to do evil. He tries to make sin seem appealing, exciting, flashy and desirable. Sadly, many fall for his lies, truly expecting a free show and a life free of consequences. But while our agency is free, we will never be able to choose our own consequences.

We visited the Las Vegas temple on our last day. What a contrast! As we stepped out of our car and walked around the grounds, we had a new appreciation for the sanctity of the Lord's House. The smells and noise of the city were forgotten. The landscaping was breathtaking and peaceful and we lingered for several hours.

As I have mentioned, I am currently serving in my stake's YW Presidency. I was THRILLED to hear that next year's theme will be the 13th article of faith. I felt that Las Vegas was the perfect visual. Though there are many unsavory sights and place in Las Vegas, anyone who lived there could find uplifting activities and be found in holy places. We were able to go see a very cute, clean movie, go to M&M World, and the chocolate factory, and to the Mormon Fort, as well as enjoy a picnic at a very nice city park. This could serve as an analogy as well. . . we were living in the world, but were trying hard not to be of the world.

Anyway, I know this post is very scattered, but the point to me is this. No matter where we find ourselves in life, or what Satan tempts us with, no matter how unsavory the world around us becomes, we always have the choice to live righteously. And as we do, we will be blessed with peace and security.

10th ANNIVERSARY

2010-10-30T19:27:00.000-07:00

We're off! Tyler and I are headed to Vegas for our 10th Anniversary so don't expect any posts for about a week! Thanks all!

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-29T21:55:00.000-07:00

WW PUMPKIN MUFFINS

(from http://www.laloosh.com/)

Serves: 24

Points: 3 (per muffin)

1 (18-oz.) box of spice cake mix

1 (15-oz.) can of pure pumpkin

1/2 c. applesauce

1/4 tsp. pumpkin pie spice

Mix all ingredients together until smooth. Spoon into greased or lined muffin tins. Bake as directed on cake mix box.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-29T21:48:00.000-07:00

"When faith is properly understood and used, it has dramatically far-reaching effects. Such faith can transform an individual's life from maudlin, common everyday activities to a symphony of j o y and happiness."

(Elder Richard G. Scott, "The Transforming Power of Faith and Character," General Conference, October 2010.)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-29T21:27:00.000-07:00

YUP! I'm still studying the "good stuff" from Conference. Tonight I was reading the text from Elder Richard E. Edgely's talk, "Faith--the Choice is Yours" (I know, I know. . . the title got the Chuck-a-Rama jingle in my head too!) I loved the following passage:

"Beware that faith is not a free gift given without thought, desire, or effort. It does not come as the dew falls from heaven. The Savior said, 'Come unto me,' (Matthew 11:28) and 'Knock, and it shall be given you,' (Matthew 7:7). These are action words: come, knock. They are choices. So I say, choose faith. Choose faith over doubt, choose faith over fear, choose faith over the unknown and unseen, and choose faith over pessimism."

What a wonderful reminder! I have always thought of faith as a sort of cycle. It takes faith to take the first step. . . to pay tithing for that first time, for example. As we obey the commandments, our faith is rewarded with more faith, which allows us to choose the right once again, and again we are blessed with increased faith, and so forth. . .

Elder Edgely then states: ". . . And what I don't know or don't completely understand, with the powerful aid of my faith, I bridge the gap and move on, partaking of the promises and blessings of the gospel."

And he warns:

"As strong as our faith is, . . . it can also be very fragile. It needs constant nourishment through continued scripture study, prayer, and the application of His word."

This is a wonderful talk! Read it. Love it. Do it.

P.S. Have you checked out the new General Conference website? You can actually make your own study notes while you read the addresses. You can also download the talks to your computer or MP3 players, and watch conference videos. Oh, and you can relive all the beautiful music from conference. You really should experience it for yourself (wink, wink):

www.new.lds.org/general-conference

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-28T09:09:00.000-07:00

LIME CHICKEN (from http://www.kitchenparade.com/)

Serves: 4

Points: 4

1/2 c. honey mustard

zest from 1 lime

2 T. lime juice (juice from 1 lime)

2 garlic cloves, minced

1 T. soy sauce

4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts

Stir together first five ingredients and spread atop chicken breasts, covering evenly. Broil chicken until cooked through, about 3-4 minutes on each side.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-27T22:35:00.000-07:00

What stood out to you in this last General Conference? I was deeply touched by President Uchdorf's talk about simplifying and going a little slower during the turbulent times. I also loved his counsel to establish meaningful relationships with God, family members, our fellowmen, and ourselves. I could certainly relate to His words: "Some people simply cannot get along with themselves." His was probably one of my favorite talks, but after the first session and onto the remaining ones, I started to notice a theme. Maybe I'm the only one who saw it. . .

I heard the phrase: "act for ourselves and not be acted upon," at least three times in different talks. The scriptural advice stuck in my mind like glue and several weeks later, I'm still pondering the meaning of this simple admonition. What does it mean? And more importantly, how does this seemingly important, repeated phrase fit in my life?

I started thinking about agency. We are always free to choose our own actions. In fact, this precious agency, our own will, is the only gift that we possess that is 100% ours. (Everything else somehow belongs to our Heavenly Father.) Knowing that, we are placed here on earth to prove our faithfulness and determination to make correct choices. Will we choose the right? Will we truly glorify God in all that we do, wherever we may go? In short, we "act for ourselves."

So what does it mean: "be acted upon"? I think that this part of the equation refers to the inevitable consequences of our actions. When we choose righteously, we receive blessings and guidance. Conversely, when we choose sin, we are often subject to pain and sorrow.

Having a basic understanding of the principle, I started thinking specifically. I have two examples from my own life's experiences:

1. I struggle with my weight. Though at times, I try to imagine that eating unwholesome foods (sometimes in large amounts) will not matter, I cannot avoid the probability that my waistline will expand and my energy and health will diminish. If I can learn to curb my cravings and eat healthier options, I will undoubtedly benefit from that decision.

2. As a teenager, I was careful to follow the prophets' counsels regarding dating, modesty, and moral cleanliness. As a result, I was prompted by the Spirit as to whom I should marry and when. When the time came, I was worthy to be sealed in the temple for all eternity. I was blessed for the choice.

Long story, short. . . we can be productive, and progressive, striving to better our individual situations, holding to the rod and be blessed. Or, we can "be acted upon," letting our personal situations fall victim to chance or fate. In my book, I'd rather have the promised blessings of the gospel, wouldn't you?

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

"To strengthen our relationship with God, we need some valuable time alone with Him." (Dieter F. Uchdorf, "Of Things That Matter Most," Ensign, November 2010)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-27T22:11:00.000-07:00

" We watch. We wait. We listen for that still, small voice. When it speaks, wise men and women obey. Promptings of the Spirit are not to be postponed." (Thomas S. Monson, "The Spirit Giveth Life," Ensign, June 1997, 4)

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-26T20:20:00.000-07:00

CROCK POT MINESTRONE (adapted from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 6

Points: 3

1/2 onion, chopped

1 c. carrots, chopped

1 celery stalk, chopped

2 garlic cloves, minced

1 (28-oz.) can diced tomatoes

1 (15-0z.) can white beans, drained and rinsed

3 cups fat-free chicken broth

1/2 tsp. Italian seasoning

2 bay leaves

salt and pepper

1 medium zucchini, chopped

2 c. fresh or frozen (defrosted) spinach, chopped

2 c. cooked (al dente), small pasta such as salad mac, elbow or mini farfalle

Drain and rinse beans. Puree beans with one cup of broth in blender. In Crock Pot, combine broth, tomatoes, pureed beans, carrots, celery, onion, garlic, seasonings, bay leaves and salt and pepper. Cover and cook on low for 6 to 8 hours.

Forty minutes before soup is done cooking, add zucchini and spinach. Cover and cook 30 more minutes. Add cooked pasta. Cook ten minutes more. Remove bay leaves. Ladle into bowls and top with Parmesan.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-26T20:15:00.001-07:00

"I learned that it is okay to fall flat on your face." --Apollo Ohno

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-26T19:49:00.000-07:00

Originally this blog was titled "Faith Precedes Size 10: Finding Joy in My Weight Loss Journey." Since I started writing, I have had other struggles sort of eclipse the original purpose of the blog and have been pleased to find that the messages I had been posting and collecting translated quite nicely to many different types of trials. I have had comments from others battling obesity, those dealing with infertility, and others who are facing un- or under- employment. One of the beautiful things about gospel study is that you find layers of meaning in the words of the prophets and in the Savior's own teachings.

I have been doing a lot of soul-searching the last few days since I read Elder Hallstrom's talk, which I referenced the other day. More specifically, the phrase: "deal with the problem directly and with all the strength you posess. . . "

I am so grateful for the prompting I received almost two years ago to start a blog. Though I haven't yet made tremondous progress with my physical health or appearance, I feel that my testimony and understanding have grown substantially. That, coupled with the support network from my readers, have made an incredible difference in my life. Thanks again for encouraging me.

When I used to attend Weight Watchers meetings I remember our class leader once taught us that the number on the scale is only feedback. If I gain one week, the number is simply feedback that whatever I did that week did not work. Calling a weight gain a "failure" is neither accurate or productive. If I lose weight however, the strategies I implemented worked and should probably be duplicated. It goes the same way in life. The only possible way I can ever really fail at anything, is by giving up. I do feel as if I have sort of given up on my goals to lose weight and I'd really like to get back on board with my plans. Though my life is riddled with stressors and complicated by uncertainty, I know that my goals are important to the Savior. They are righteous and qualify as an "anxious cause" in which I should be engaged. In short, I know that when and if I am willing, He offers His hand. He can help me get up off the ground and give this thing one more shot.

On Sunday, I did a family photo session and my husband and I had some pictures taken as well. Later, as I edited the images of myself, yes, there was the usual shock in seeing myself so large. And yes, the usual self-critical comments came to mind, but: 1) I was so proud of myself for taking the time to edit them, as I would for any of my clients and 2) I was surprised to see a beautiful spirit there in each photo. I feel that editing pictures of "fat me" was a extremely significant move towards self-love. After all, I am me. . . God's child. And He is there to help me. So, I will try again, with my hand in His.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

CHICKEN ENCHILADA CHILI

(adapted from http://www.5dollardinners.com/)

Serves: 5

Points: 3

1 c. homemade or store-bought beef broth

1 (6-oz.) can tomato paste

3 T. homemade taco seasoning

1 T. chili powder

1 (15-oz.) can red beans, drained

2 c. cooked black beans (canned is fine, rinse and drain)

1 (15-oz.) can diced tomatoes

2 c. cooked and shredded chicken

In a large saucepan or Dutch oven whisk together the beef broth and the tomato paste, plus about one can worth of water. Stir in the taco seasoning and chili powder. Add the red beans, black beans and tomatoes. Stir, heat through and simmer for ten minutes. Stir in the chicken. Simmer a little longer. (If simmering longer than 15 minutes, cover to prevent liquids from evaporating.)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-24T23:09:00.000-07:00

"Faith and fear cannot coexist." (Elder Kevin W. Pearson, "Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ," Ensign, May 2009, 40)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-24T22:36:00.001-07:00

Can I just tell you. . . I love the gospel? Today was wonderful. Our Teachings for Our Times lesson was based on the address: "Turn to the Lord," by Donald Hallstrom from April, 2010 conference. It was awesome. He talked a lot about not becoming offended by others or discouraged when hard times come your way. Here is the quote that stood out to me. (Actually, it was more like a charge from a lightning bolt.)

"If you feel you have been wronged--by anyone. . . or by anything (the death of a loved one, health problems, a financial reversal, abuse, addictions) deal with the matter directly and with all the strength you have. "Hold on thy way" (D&C 122:9); giving up is not an option. And, without delay, turn to the Lord. Exercise all the faith you have in Him. Let Him share your burden. Allow His grace to lighten your load. We are promised that we will suffer "no manner of afflictions save it were swallowed up in the joy of Christ" (Alma 31:38). Never let an earthly matter disable you spiritually."

I LOVE THAT! 1. Handle problems directly and with all our strength. 2. Never give up. 3. Without hesitation, involve the Lord in the matter, having faith that He can and WILL lighten the load. And that last line: "NEVER let an earthly matter diasable you spiritually."

At one point in her lesson, the teacher asked what we can do to "turn to the Lord." One sweet lady, Ruth, my 81-year-old adopted grandmother, said that each time she is faced with adversity, she simply says a prayer asking the Lord to, in His own time, allow the trial to become a blessing. She noted that WITHOUT exception, every trial she has faced in her life has blessed her in some way. I was moved to tears by her simple, but mighty faith.

I hope that I will never allow a rude comment (such as the one that upset me the other day), an unkind glance, a judgement passed, or any other outside, earthly event rob me of the ability to live my life with grace and dignity, knowing that I am the Lord's and that He loves me. I hope that as challenges arise, I will consistently think of the Lord as my first helper and as my lifeline. I am full of love for Him and His promised assistance and watchful care.

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-22T21:50:00.000-07:00

PUMPKIN-CREAM CHEESE SPREAD (from http://www.bhg.com/)

Serves: 24

Points: 0.5

1 (8-oz.) package of light cream cheese, softened

1/2 c. canned pumpkin puree

1/4 c. sugar

3/4 tsp. pumpkin pie spice

1/2 tsp. vanilla

Beat all ingredients in a medium mixing bowl with an electric mixer on medium speed until smooth. Cover and refrigerate for at least one hour. Serve with graham crackers, fruit, bagels, pretzels, or whatever (additional points).

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-22T21:42:00.000-07:00

". . . I testify you are individually loved of God, you are central to the meaning of this work, and you are cherished and prayed for by the presiding officers of His church. The personal value, the sacred splendor of every one of you, is the very reason there is a plan for salvation and exaltation. Contrary to the parlance of the day, this is about you. No, don't turn and look at your neighbor. I am talking to you!" (Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, "Because of Your Faith," General Confernce, October 2010)

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-22T21:30:00.000-07:00

I'm ba-ack! Needless to say, it's been a little hectic in my world this month. I have been keeping insanely busy with my family, work, my new mega-sized calling, and the peak of photography season. Sadly enough, I have slipped a little on my goals, both spiritual and for my health. Sigh.

I'm not gonna lie. Today was hard. I had a cruel comment made to my face about my weight, saw a shocking picture of myself, and I'm back to that point where health-wise, I just feel YUCKY. Also, my husband and I have gone through some craziness with our jobs lately, in the form of getting hours cut back, etc. (And believe me, the ETC. was BIG). But, here's the thing. . . I have had discouraging days (such as today), but overall, I still feel loved and guided. My kiddos and I have upped the ante (spelling?) with our prayers that Tyler will be able to find a higher-paying job soon and that we will receive the guidance necessary to get us through all this. It's been a neat experience to hear our kiddos pray FOR us. It is touching to know that their tiny little prayers are added to our pleas. And humbling. They are such wonderful examples of faith.

I am almost embarrassed to ask, but if any of you could offer a quick little prayer for our family at this time, I would appreciate it so much. And I would love the opportunity to pray for any of you who are struggling with anything. It's always so comforting to know that prayers are going up. Thank you all for your patience and love. I love you right back!

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-10-02T15:37:00.000-07:00

DELIGHTFULLY BAKED APPLES (from http://www.skinnytaste.com/)

Serves: 4

Points: 3

2 large apples, cut in half
2 T. butter, melted
2 T. brown sugar
2 T. flour
4 T. quick oats
pinch of cinnamon

Preheat oven to 350º. Cut apples in half and remove core and seeds with a small pairing knife or spoon.In a small bowl combine butter, brown sugar, flour, oats and cinnamon. Spoon on top of the apple halves and sprinkle with cinnamon. Place on a cookie sheet and bake in the oven for 30 minutes. Serve warm with fat free whipped cream or low fat ice cream (additonal points).

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

2010-10-02T15:34:00.000-07:00

“Learn to pray. Pray often. Pray in your mind, in your heart. Pray on your knees. Prayer is your personal key to heaven. The lock is on your side of the veil. And I have learned to conclude all my prayers with ‘Thy will be done’ (Matthew 6:10; see also Luke 11:2; 3 Nephi 13:10).” (Boyd K. Packer, “Prayer and Promptings,” Ensign, Nov. 2009, 46 )

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-10-02T15:18:00.000-07:00

This week has been...interesting. I hurt my back badly on Tuesday. It was feeling better by Thursday, but then one small mis-move, threw it out again. This time, I could hardly even move, and when I was moving, the pain was EXCRUCIATING. My sweet daughter tucked all the kids in bed (and the dog), then helped me get settled in my own bed. She soon fell asleep and so did I. My husband was working a grave shift and had no idea I had hurt my back again. I woke at about 12:30 in the morning with the most pain I have felt since giving birth, with no epidural, to my nine-pound baby boy. At this point, I could not move one inch. The phone was only an arm's length away, but I couldn't get to it. I wanted to call my husband so badly, but I couldn't. I wanted to call my dad to come and give me another blessing of comfort, but again, it was impossible. I wished my mom, a retired nurse, was there to help alleviate the symptoms, but she was across town, sleeping soundly. I also thought of my brothers, one of which is a physical therapist. Surely he would have some great exercise I could do, or could help me maneuver myself off the bed and into a less painful position. Or maybe my other brother, Mark, could help, as he has had bad back problems for years. But I couldn't reach any of them, and my poor, exhausted children couldn't hear my calls for help. So I laid there, helpless and alone.

As the pain came in waves of agony, it occurred to me that I really wasn't alone. I called out (literally) to my Father in Heaven to deliver me from the pain, or bring me help. Then, I thought of another medical "expert" --my Savior. He had already felt this pain in my behalf. He understood what I was feeling and how to alleviate it. I knew that although the phone was out of reach, my voice could still be heard, through prayer. I prayed and prayed, and though the pain didn't subside right away, it lessened enough that I could bear it until Tyler got home several hours later. Then my sweet, sweet husband, helped me out of bed (OUCH!) and into the living room, where I was able to feel a little better.

It was a humbling experience. I feel so blessed to have had this reminder of my need for the Savior. I am never alone.

Update: Yes, I am feeling much, much better today. :)

FOOD FOR THE BODY

2010-09-27T21:36:00.000-07:00

APRICOT-GLAZED PORK ROAST (from http://www.recipegirl.com/)

Serves: 6

Points: 6

2 to 2½ lb. boned, rolled pork loin roast

½ c. apricot preserves

1 T. Dijon mustard

1 tsp. dried thyme

Preheat oven to 325°F. Unroll roast; trim fat. Re-roll roast; secure at 1-inch intervals with heavy string. Combine preserves, mustard, and thyme in a bowl; stir. Brush 1 Tablespoon apricot mixture over roast. Place on a broiler pan coated with cooking spray. Insert meat thermometer into thickest portion of roast. Bake for 1 hour and 45 minutes or until meat thermometer registers 160° (slightly pink), basting once with apricot mixture. Let stand 15 minutes before slicing. Bring remaining apricot mixture to a boil; reduce heat, and cook 2 minutes. Serve with roast.

FOOD FOR THE SPIRIT

2010-09-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

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